i'm learning. i'm learning everday and my limits are not just in classrooms. but i have not gotten to the point where i am really able to write about what i'm learning and experiencing. i'm not quite to the summary part of these past months. i will get there, i hope, but until then i'm just experiencing.

but on to what you really care about: my photography. i've been dragging my camera around telling myself to take pictures, of anything--even just my friends and i hanging out in a coffee shop or in the garage smoking a cigarette. but i'm having trouble. i hope to overcome this soon. on the other hand i have some photographs i need to edit and submit from a romanian festival i attended in colleyville, texas. i think for so much of my life i wanted to be american and have american traditions but now that it is not in my living room i'm fascinated. i had a wonderful time and i hope you enjoy them.

i wish i could send all of you a bouquet of freshly sharpened pencils, oh how i adore the fall.

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I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
-cocorosie.
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–noun
1. a furrow or track in the ground, esp. one made by the passage of a vehicle or vehicles.
2. any furrow, groove, etc.
3. a fixed or established mode of procedure or course of life, usually dull or unpromising: to fall into a rut.
–verb (used with object)
4. to make a rut or ruts in; furrow.
[Origin: 1570–80; perh. var. of route]

i haven't felt much like myself lately--
i need to make a connection.

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SUMMER GOALS

- take lots and lots of pictures/ photoshoots
- go back over the basics of photography
- reread my camera's manual
- exercise on a regular basis
- find someone that owns a hammock and become friends with them
- do little things for my friends and family that will make them smile
- print some of my photographs/ start my portfolio
- see old friends
- keep up with my reading
- roadtrip to austin, tx
- take as many roadtrips as i can
- make it memorable
- don't become numb
- don't become numb

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the weather depicted the way i felt to a tee.
i let myself go and just relaxed.
no reaction.
my mind wandered.
can't even recall now.
"it's been one hell of a week".

all i can say is that i want to keep being surprised or life is going to seem a lot longer.

"another line and he said that he understood me or something like that and i did another line and believed him because it is easier to move through the motions than not to."
-the informers; bret easton ellis

one more week of winter break then back to school. &i'm pretty ready.

i'm kind of ready to feel again. i haven't felt much of anything being back in mckinney and my apathy only grows.

but besides the point. christmas was tolerable. my parents finally bought me a new camera- a canon rebel xti - my graduation/birthday/&xmas present. jeeeeez. new years was fun, for the most part but everything seemed to slow down after that event. everything's in slow motion. i decided to skip new years resolutions because i'm awful with them.

i'm trying to take as many pictures and get some ideas out there while i still have the time. as always critiques are very much appreciated. i've been slacking on keeping up with everyone's photographs but i hope to change that this week.

much love friends

"Beware of the man who works hard to learn something, learns it, and finds himself no wiser than before," Bokonon tells us. "He is full of murderous resentment of people who are ignorant without having come by their ignorance the hard way."- Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut